Of course I'm not yet done talking about you. I spent most of the day already doing so, but I'm just not done yet.

You probably don't know about this blog, so there, I'm free to write whatever I want.

How do I deal with this? I thought I had it all figured out -- I was gonna stay out of your way, keep to myself most of the time, even when we're together, and not be the same Leigh that you knew before. Obviously, I wasn't able to do any of these, that's why I'm ranting.

I don't understand how you can just come back as if nothing happened. I don't get why after all this time, I still feel the same. Your presence still comforts me, more than any other person I know. Hay. I can't believe after all this time, I still feel the same. For once I feel that I'm taken care of, instead of me taking care of everyone else.

How do I remedy this? What do I do? I can't just simply say that I'll stay away from you, because truth be told, its not that easy. It's like finding you again, only to lose you another time. You broke me before, and now, you're trying to fix me up, and I don't know how to deal with it.

let it go
31.8.07





let it go
13.5.07



When She Cries
Restless Heart

The road I have traveled on
Is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
That never quite came true
When all of my hopes were dying
Her love kept me trying
And she does her best to hide the pain that
she's been through

When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide
all the fear she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
she cries

She's always been there for me
Whenever I've fallen
When nobody else believed
She'd be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
Just once I'd like to make it
Then there'll be tears of joy
That fill her loving eyes

When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide all the fear she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

... this is all because of PBB. Hahahaha, another one of my rediscovered songs. :)

let it go
21.4.07


I want so many things back.

Anyway, nakakainis, walang multiply!

let it go
21.4.07



I don't understand why I've been having trouble sleeping. It's now almost one and a half weeks that I haven't been able to have even 7 hours of sleep. That's weird because I'm having all nighters now that its summer vacation, instead of when there's class. Wtf?

I'm tired, I know. But why can't I seem to stop? I can't seem to stay put in the house and just watch DVDs or something. Take today for example. Instead of just resting because I just got home from the summer camp yesterday, I went out with Francis. I wasn't feeling very well, but I still went out. What's with that??

Hay. This just goes to show how much control I have over myself. I can't seem to just say NO.

Anyway, I spent tonight with Francis, hanging out at Bonifacio High Street. To those who haven't been there, it's a really nice place if all you want to do is just hang out. Anyway, that's exactly what Francis and I did. We ate at that American resto, walked around (and saw Clare with Gary and her family too!), played at Timezone, and hung out more at Starbucks. Afterwards, we went to Dasma to hang out more at the park while blowing the bubbles we got from playing at Timezone.

Apparently, we got to talk about sooooo much stuff. These are the times wherein I'm so happy I have such great friends. I want to feel like this all the time. :)

let it go
17.4.07



I'm back from the summer camp. Despite the fact that I've only had about eleven (read, ELEVEN) hours of sleep this past 3 nights, I am awake right now.

I don't want to be emo, but it's all sinking in.

You know what, I really don't regret spending this much time and energy in my org. Kythe has given me so much, and again, the summer camp has proven this to me. My heart is overflowing with so much love for them right now. Suddenly, I miss all the noise, all the gulo, all the kakulitan, the jokes.. everything. The house seems so quiet all of a sudden.

I won't go into the details here of what happened. Suffice it to say, I enjoyed those three days immensely. Despite the masks, the hairless heads, the scars and stuff, they all seemed like normal kids. For once I got to see them active and energetic. I really got to bond with them and form real relationships with them. I was a real "ate" to them, and they were like little brothers and sisters to me.

Shucks. Hahaha, I'm soooooo hooked!!

let it go
15.4.07



Hey you.

I missed you. Those late night conversations were absolutely wonderful. I'm happy because we're back to where we started, from scratch. But then I'm gonna try as much as possible to stop being a girl about all about this and pretend that I wasn't thinking of a future with you just because of those text messages. It's too early to tell.

But I'm praying. God knows I regretted taking you for granted. I'm praying for another chance. You're a good person and you deserve to be treated better.

let it go
11.4.07



2006 Bar Exam results are out. Oh God. In around 5 years or so, I will be one of those people outside the Supreme Court either rejoicing or ranting. Oh God.

Because I was bored (and inspired by the bar results), I checked the website of Ateneo Law School, and got to see the results of the entrance exam for next school year. Unfortunately, my friend did not pass (unless I was blind or something, that I didn't see her name).

One more year and I'm almost there. But then, how sure am I that I really am gonna pass? I, for one, know that my friend is waaaaayy smarter than me, and waaaayy more interested in becoming a lawyer. How do I measure up to that?

Blech. I just don't wanna disappoint my dad. He believes in me so much, that sometimes, I myself am swayed. I start thinking that I'm something I'm really not, just because of his faith in me.

let it go
4.4.07

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