Monday, August 08, 2005
A relationship is crumbling into pieces right in front of my eyes. I don't know whose fault it is, I don't know who to blame for this, and that makes me wonder if a friendship could really last forever.
You're probably not reading this, at least I hope you're not. I'd hate for you to know what I'm thinking right now, because I know the issue's just with me, in me. I'm sure you don't think that you're doing anything wrong. I've changed, I know. I've evolved into a more sensitive person, and somehow, you don't understand that. I have no control over the changes that I'm going through. It's my way of coping, I guess. I'm not putting the blame entirely on you guys, because I know I've become harder to get along with. But if you should know, you've changed too. In fact, I can't even find any traces of the people I used to get along with. It's like you've created your own world that I couldn't enter. And you've brought with you people that you want to be with, and sadly, I'm not one of them.
We're both probably being too insensitive to each other's feelings. That's probably it. Here I am, wanting you to understand where I'm coming from, when I don't understand what you're going through too. In fact, I don't even know a thing about you anymore. We've become strangers in just barely 2 months. I'm puzzled by how a friendship I thought would last forever could just dissolve in a matter of 2 months.
I don't know how we could bring things back to what it used to be. I don't even know if that's even possible. I don't know.. maybe we've just changed too much.
let it go
8.8.05
