Saturday, March 24, 2007
See, I'm still not yet done gushing about this movie. I wanna watch it again. and again. and again. and again. Whew.
I wanna marry a spartan man. Not only do they have nice bodies (woohooo! 6 pack abs were all over the place), but they have respect for their women. (Okay, that part probably wasn't real, but then, it's just nice to dream, right? Haha.)
It really sucks that they all had to die just because of one scorned hunchback. It's so unfair to die just because of that. Hahaha, okay. I'm done gushing. I have to finish a paper for com 111 by tomorrow, and I haven't even started yet. Great.
Labels: 300
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24.3.07
Great movie. Hands down.
Yes, I'm not a loser anymore. I finally got to watch 300, and for once, all the hype about it was true. Beautiful cinematography, visuals, and directing. Haha, thanks to Fr. Nick and COM 111, I was looking for all the cinematography and editing effects all over the place.
Watching 300 made me miss how much I loved history when I was a kid. History is always a story about the triumph of humanity, no matter how depressing or frustrating the events are. For me, what I loved about history was that it's always a story of victory, even though it may not be obvious at first glance. And the fact that it happened to real people, made it even more special.
History remembers the victorious. However, somewhere out there, there's bound to be somebody who remembers the other side of the story. King Leonidas, you were not forgotten, despite Xerxes' threats of erasing your name from history.
Okay. More about this tomorrow. (I think.)
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24.3.07
Thursday, March 22, 2007
12:42 am. Wow. Parang walang pasok bukas ah. And to think I even have a long exam tomorrow. Hahaha. Goodluck to me! Yay!
Another wow, for the way I've been blogging lately. Three days in a row! I must be bored. (or, I must really have lots of things to say -- yeah, that's most likely it.) That doesn't even count my posts for my other blogs. :)
So why am I still up?
I'm waiting for the forum in ABS-CBN, the one where they get three senatoriables at a time and interview them about a specific topic.
Haha, I know what you're probably thinking. How hypocritical of me. Haha. :)
Well, actually, it's actually quite interesting. Having to see which senatoriable has things of quality to say and having to see "respectable" people mumbling incoherently when put on the spot is actually quite enjoyable. I'm really learning a lot -- about how unworthy some of the senatoriables are. So far, in the three episodes that I've watched, Chiz Escudero was the best. He was very eloquent, concise, and the fact that he talked in a way that does not intimidate the audience is very admirable. It's tempting to use such highfaluting words and complicated and specialized terms when in that situation, just to be able to look like a smart person. The fact that he did not do that, gives him plus points in my scoreboard. :)
Chavit Singson's in today's episode. Imagine him having to talk about corruption and transparency. Oh God. What a hypocrite. Haha, he's actually just talking about nonsense, thanks to Maria Ressa's question. Imagine him having to ask a question about how he helped ease corruption. This is exciting. Haha. ;)
Papa and I were having this conversation a while ago about how different senatoriables of these past years are different from the senatoriables of his era. He said that those people, Diokno, Tanada, and others, were really deserving of their position. They had real issues to fight for. They were passionate about really serving the country, not like now, when if you think about it, these people are just in it for the pork barrel. What a waste.
Sometimes thinking about these things make me feel really hopeless. I'm twenty years old and these things are happening to the country. It's turning into trash! I don't blame people who choose to leave the country. If I had the means to, and if my dad wanted to, I probably would do the same thing. But because I have no choice but to stay here, I have to put up with everything.
But then there's still this little voice inside my head that's telling me that everything's not hopeless... that there's still hope. I don't know. One thing I know, though. I want to serve, and when I say service, I mean service in the small scale. Things change little by little, and I want to help try and change those little things, that will eventually grow into significant changes.
Wow. Bayani na ito. Haha, atenista eh. Man for others.
Ok, tulog nako.
Labels: dreams, politics, television
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22.3.07
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I thought I was better than that. Apparently, I was wrong.
Thank you to all the people who told me that I didn't need to do that. Thanks for all the kind words, the expressions of concern and what not. I'm tempted to actually believe those things that you said, but then when I go back to the real world (that is not online), things are back to where they started. Suddenly, your words don't seem to matter. All that matters is how I measure up to what society thinks is beautiful.
Yes, I am admitting my insecurities.
It would be ideal to say that I am not affected by what society thinks is beautiful, but truth be told, I have been fooling myself for the longest time that I didn't care.
Guess what, I DO CARE.
Vanity? Maybe. I read somewhere that most Filipina women want something changed in terms of how they look. Yay, I'm part of that statistic. I want to change myself, and honestly, its not even for health reasons. I just want to be pretty. I want to be able to wear clothes that I want to wear. I want to be able to do whatever I want. I want to be treated like any other girl. I want my friends to look at me the way they look at other girls. I want to show another part of me that I haven't been able to show before. I want to be able to take risks.
Omg. Did I just blurt that all out or what?
The secret's out. I am not invincible. I'm not happy anymore.
At this point, the easy way out is just to say that I'm happy being the way I am right now. But I am not going to allow myself to think that anymore. I've spent my whole life pretending I was happy, when I really wasn't. Pressure is the key. Pressure.
Labels: crazy
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21.3.07
Monday, March 19, 2007
Hello blog, I'm back. After a hiatus of more than a year, I'm back to blogging here.
Today I fixed my minoring. I'm finally minoring in Cultural Heritage, something that I found that I liked. I'm not really sure if I'm going to be able to use the minor degree in my future, but what the heck, I like it, that's what should matter, right? After all, a minor degree should be something you enjoy, since it's just a minor. The major is what should be taken seriously. :) But why should you believe me? Hahaha. :)
Last day of Philo 102 class was today too. I was kinda sad about it all ending, my being a student of Mr. Tolentino, that is. I spent around 8 months slacking around in his class, but my last 2 months were really fruitful. I was kinda feeling bad because I knew I wasn't making the most of Ateneo's philosophy classes, but my last 2 months of Ph102 kinda made up for it. Now I understand why Ateneo forces all its students to take all 12 units of Philosophy. It really is life changing, to some extent. Levinas rocks my socks! --- that somehow sums it all up.
I'm really looking forward to having Sir Tolentino for 103 and 104. He made Philo so enjoyable this year, that I even felt that it wasn't to be taken seriously. (Thus, the reason for my 8 cuts in 1st sem and my 10 cuts this 2nd sem. Hahaha.)
For some strange reason, I'm really into this whole Magis thing. After 3 years of bumming around, I guess I'm now officially brainwashed by the Ateneo. Good grief.
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19.3.07